Here I am again! This time I’m blogging from Southern Spain where I’m living at the moment. I have this gnawing feeling that my English is deteriorating each new sunny day spent here. And my Spanish doesn’t seem to get any better either so I’m probably just losing the ability to speak any language properly.
That isn’t really the only reason why I’m back: I’ve been craving to write. Write, write and write! I suppose new life situations always wake up my inner author. So, yes, I might tell you some stories from Andalusia during the next four months but not quite yet.
I realised something very strange today.
My friend had linked an article on Facebook about this politician in my home country who had very provocative (krhm – just crazy) ideas about everything from feminism to immigrants. I was reading it with an increasing fury and confusion – how can someone think like that! How is it possible to be so absurdly narrow-minded?
That’s when it hit me: my own mindset only three or four years ago.
I feel a bit ashamed to even tell this story but it also taught me something positive about myself and humans in general, I suppose, so here we go. I had a very religious upbringing – and I still am religious, if in a bit different way than back then. I also grew up to believe that even if I didn’t morally accept something I had no right to judge people for who they are. So I had many close gay friends and it never bothered me anyhow (nor it should have bothered).
However, there were these presidential elections in my home country soon after I had received the right to vote. There were two main candidates, both very popular. I wasn’t politically aware at all nor was I interested in finding out properly about the parties the candidates represented. So what was my decisive factor? The other candidate was gay. That was the main reason that put me off of voting for him. I didn’t want someone so openly gay to represent my country.
Today I almost don’t recognise the person I used to be. I used to be absurdly narrow-minded. And I’m not even happy with the current president I voted for. I believe this another candidate could have done better job and today his values are much closer to mine.
However, my past serves a good point: people can change. For the better. And perhaps even I can try to understand where all the narrow-minded people come from with their harsh judgements. I still have much to learn myself as well and hopefully I can keep growing more and more as a person.
Well well, this post is getting way too serious now. Let’s change the tone and I can tell you a few other things I was a bit delusional about in my teenage years:
1) Body hair. I used to shave my arm hair besides all the other hair because, well, female bodies are not supposed to be hairy anywhere. Luckily I quit this nonsense before I turned twenty because it’s such a waste of time – who even cares about my arm hair?? Today I have wonderfully soft and hairy arms. Maybe one day I can feel as carefree about my legs and armpits, too…
2) Boys boys boys. I dreamed of finding the perfect boyfriend pretty much all the time. I thought of boyfriends as somewhat a necessity and used to sigh how I’m already sixteen-seventeen-eighteen and never had anyone! I wanted a boyfriend without realising how much commitment it needed and I wasn’t even ready for any of that. So when I finally got my first very short-term “boyfriend” at eighteen, I treated him as a friend because I had no idea what it meant to be with someone… Funnily enough, when I learned to be happy with myself and when I was finally ready for one, I found the great boyfriend. At twenty-one and very content it didn’t happen earlier.
3) Opinions. It’s great to have strong opinions about things you know nothing about! Well, this is not even funny because I see so many people doing this… And I still do, a lot. I guess this is my bad habit but I can tell I’ve got a lot better. I used to have lots of arguments with my friends and get angry very fast when they couldn’t agree with my obviously right opinion.
There are definitely many many more things but some of them are definitely TMI so let’s leave it at this.
My message to you is: Grow! Challenge yourself! Dig deep! Deeper. (Try to reach China!)
Bye for now, my little pumpkin dandelions~
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